Cripe it's gonna be 2007

uh.....what are we doing for new years?


we includes anyone and everyone.

True colors are showing through

It doesn't matter what color I dye my hair, I am truly a blonde...and i definitely had a dumb blonde moment today.

I went to grab a cupcake out of the kitchen at work. i was joined by raylene and there were two other women in the kitchen as well. i grab a cupcake in one hand and grab two forks in the other, one for myself and one for raylene. as i go to hand raylene the fork, i start looking around for my cupcake and have a really confused look on my face. i think one of the ladies asked what i was looking for and i sadly said, i can't find my cupcake. and she looks at me like i'm crazy, which i am, and she says, the one that's in your hand?

jesus h. christ.

So i stuff you with bread it dont hurt cuz you're dead

FRIDAY
watched lady and the tramp and it was wonderful. i seriously love disney movies. i can quote many of them from start to finish and i'm damn proud of it.

SATURDAY
instead of trying to study i cleaned my apartment and did laundry. then watched a christmas story with joan. another fabulous movie.

we decided to have a grown up night of sophistication...so we, as in joan, jenny, raylene, and i, dressed up, had extraordinary desserts, and went to see the nutcracker. i have never seen it and i must say, it's a good show. the best part is when we got there too early and sat around in our nice dresses at baja fresh.

SUNDAY
finally started my christmas shopping. was quite successful too. AND i only bought two things for myself...which is really good. i'm definitely one of those people who go shopping for others and find things majorly on sale that i have to have and then i buy it.

so now i'm watching the little mermaid and i'm wondering which disney movie to watch next. aladdin maybe....or beauty and the beast. shit i don't know.

You try to be a nice person and....

you still feel like ass. I was dating this guy for like....well, we went on TWO dates. the spark was just not there for me. so i wanted to tell him in person that i think he's a great guy and so sweet and he will be the perfect guy for whoever is so lucky to be his girl (and i sincerely mean this) but that that girl will never be me. he knew something was up so i ended up telling him on the phone. he kept saying how he knew this was coming and that he told his friend he knew it was coming and that his friend told him that i dont know what a great guy i'm missing out on and that i'll regret it and that i'm too young to know what's good for me. great. I KNOW YOU"RE A GREAT GUY. but god dammit sometimes it is just NOT there. at least i didn't keep him around for the attention or eventual hooking up. fuck...why do i have to justify to myself that i'm not a bad person?

tell me things will get better...